When something ends, something better starts by jo_san_go

When something ends, something better starts

*** This is a one-shot, plz enjoy!***

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When something ends, something better starts

My name is Kagome Higurashi. I'm eighteen years old now. Three years have passed since I first met Inuyasha in feudal Japan and one year since we've accomplished our mission. In those two years that I have spent with Inuyasha, Sango, Shippo and Miroku, I've become closer and closer to them. Most especially to Inuyasha who I loved the most. He was my first and last love. I've never been able to love someone else than him. I have tried, but no one made my heart feel like it did when I was with him. Sometimes, I wonder if it was better for me to send him back home. After all, when we decided to part at the end of our adventure, it was suppose to be for good... But I was so sad and so was he... He couldn't stand it so he came to see me. I was so happy to see him again... He spent some days at my home. The last day he was at my family shrine, it was a special day. Every year, on that day, my family prays the spirits to ask them peace and joy for our family. And as I was supposed to, I wore my special kimono. It was long and kind of large, it had red sleeves and the rest was white. It really looked like Kikyo's. I didn't realize it until Inuyasha saw me. I saw it in his eyes. Sorrow. He was thinking about her again. I then understood; he still loved her, more than me. I decided to end this. My heart couldn't take it anymore. That night, I brought him to the well, pretending I wanted to go see the others. I asked him to take me in his arms, so he did. Without him noticing it, I took the Shikon Jewel from him so that he couldn't come back here. I then pushed him down the well and washed him fall, looking at me with incomprehension. Of curse, I did it to heal. I wanted to forget about him, my feelings for him. It was the only way, or I would have spent the rest of my days sad and miserable. I had no choice.

One year since I last saw him. I have tried at least five relationships with five wonderful guys. All smart, nice and handsome, but none made me feel in love. I mean, I loved them, but it wasn't the big love type. I've never been able to let myself go. I felt like I had to restrain myself. With Inuyasha, I could yell at him, be mad at him, joke with him, he still knew who I was and that I cared for him. The others thought I was the calm and caring type that never loses her temper. If only they really knew me... I wouldn't feel like I have to act like they think I do. In other words, for the last year, I haven't really been happy. Not only I haven't forgotten about that stupid half-dog-demon, but my grades at school were lame, my grandpa was really sick and couldn't leave his bed, my brother Sota has become a delinquent and all of my friends have abandoned me because I practically don't speak anymore. My life's a shit. A total shit.

Tonight is a cold night. The sky is gray and it looks like it's about to rain. But I don't really care. I'm not outside, now am I? I'm lying on my back on my bed and I'm listening to Satin Green Shutters from Chris deBurgh. I love this song. My mom use to sing it to me when I was a kid. It was my lullaby. Then my first part came:

"When you're sad and feeling low, you're on your own with nowhere to go,

Make believe that she is gone, play your guitar and write a song for her,

Write down the words about how you cried when you woke up weeping,

'Cos you thought that she had died, and you heard her breathing,

Through your pain and you held her close and cried all over again,

Where your love is, put your heart, oh what would you do if your dreams came true?"

I didn't notice I had sung it out loud, but I don't mind. My eyes are shot and I let myself sing the rest with a sweet voice. When I finish at the same time as Chris, I feel a cold breeze pass through my hair. I open my eyes and look at my window... It's closed. Then where did that breeze come from? I get up and look around my room. My eyes fell on one of my boxes, carefully hidden underneath my dozens of teddy bears my mom gave me. My heart starts beating fast. I know perfectly well what's in that box. For a reason I don't know of, I need to see it, to touch it. Without making any noise, I pull the box from under the teddy bears and open it. There it is. The Shikon Jewel. And for a strange reason, it's glowing and I can see the good and evil within it swirling around and battling. Its power is overwhelming and I feel it asking me to go back and end the battle.

I close my eyes and let a tear roll down my right cheek. I knew this time would come. I should have done it at that time, before I come back to my world. Well, at the time, we didn't see the hurry in destroying the jewel, but now its power has become uncontrollable, if only by me, the only true miko around.

I concentrate by closing my eyes and purify the jewel again by calming it down. When it has stopped glowing, I put it in my pocket and get up. I put my green jacket on, my boots and hat on, and I leave my room to go to the well. I look down at it and sight. I thought I would never go back there. Is Inuyasha still around Kaede's village? I hope not. I have the feeling he'd do anything to take the Shikon Jewel from me and make his stupid wish.

Well, I guess I don't have any choice now. I sit on the edge of the well and look one last time outside the shrine. Here I go... I let myself fell down the well and seconds later I find myself five hundreds years before. I don't waist any time. I climb up and get out of the old well. When I get out, I look around and sight. I had the impression that Inuyasha would be there... Maybe because he had always been there when I'd come back...

Here too it's cold and freaky outside.

"Brr"

I put my arms around myself and start to walk towards the village. But when I get there, there's none. There's only burned fleshed and houses, dust and dark clouds. My eyes can't believe what they see. It looks like the village has been destroyed a year ago...

"What the hell happened?" I ask out loud.

"You made that hanyou pretty mad" I hear a voice coming from behind me.

I turn around and see a chest. I look up and strangle a scream.

"Sesshoumaru..."

"I'm surprised you remember me miko" he says with that same cold look.

But there's something else in that look and I can't get my finger on it. And I'm not so sure I want to know, he's so close I can smell his exotic sent... Sesshoumaru raises an eyebrow and I wonder why.

"Is that Inuyasha's doing?" I ask him pointing towards of what used to be Kaede's village.

"That's what I've heard" he answered still his gaze locked on me.

I have the impression he's looking me all over, making me feel uncomfortable. His golden eyes are blazing in some kind of way that makes me feel weird, some feeling I've never felt before.

"The rumors say he went back from that well completely out of his mind and destroyed everything around him" he continues now looking straight into my eyes. "I have no difficulty believe that"

"Why?"

"I saw him some days after that. I had heard about his actions and asked him why. He just didn't listen and attacked me."

I fear the worst and he sees it.

"I didn't kill him" he says reading my mind. "Though I wished badly to after what he did."

And there I see it. That thing I had noticed before in his eyes... Sorrow. Sorrow for his lost... I feel tears rolling down my cheeks at the thought of Rin... This is my entire fault. I want to tell him, but I fear. But he then does the most unbelievable thing: he puts his hands on my shoulders with tenderness and wipes my tears.

"I do not stand you guilty for what happened" he tells me with a strange voice, not he usual cold one.

I can only shake my head, not knowing what's happening.

"You said... you wished..."

But then again, he reads my thoughts.

"Your human friends killed him. I suppose they didn't have any choice."

"Hn" is only what I can say.

I don't know why, but I'm not so sad about it. I had never wished that to happen, but his death is not surprising and it leaves me with complete indifference. And I'm confused about my own feelings. He smiles about it. I see Sesshoumaru smile at my incomprehension and he bends towards me. I can feel his breath down my neck and I trembled. But not of fear. Of...

"Miko, I can smell your lust."

I blush and feel ashamed. I have never felt lust in all my life and now it has to happen with that cold youkai! What's going on? And why is he... so nice with me? He used to be so cruel and cold...

I then realized what's happening. The Shikon Jewel! I didn't sense it, but now I'm feeling completely well its power getting out and it's burning my left leg. I can feel the battle between bad and good being more intense by the seconds. And I know what impact it has on us; it's letting our emotions go out, we don't have any controls on them. That's why I can't control myself and Sesshoumaru can't control letting out his sorrow and want.

I try to tell him.

"Sesshoumaru... The Shikon Jewel, it's..."

But he cuts me off.

"It needs to be destroyed" he only says. "I knew you'd come back, miko."

He puts his right arm around me and kisses my neck. I can't help but gasp.

"There's only one way." he continues between kisses down my neck. "To end the battle between good and evil, one must allies with the other."

He tears my shirt off and put it aside. His golden glare is set on my breast and my heart is beating real fast. I have the impression I could faint with only that gaze on me.

"Complete reunion." He finishes.

I don't understand what he means. But my thoughts aren't there anymore. They're wandering around his body and I can only wait to see it. He follows my thoughts and smile at my lust. He then pulls his clothes off and within seconds he finds himself completely naked before me. His body is so perfect... He has fine muscles, a hard body and hard erection. I gulp at that sight. He lifts my chin up and kisses me passionately on the lips. I can hardly follow his movements, then being real too fast and passionate for me. He licks my bottom lip and asks entrance, which I allow him. His tong taste so good and he's so good at kissing I hardly notice him ridding me of my clothes. I only notice when he brings me closer to him and that I feel his arousal against my stomach. I thought it would have bothered me, but it didn't. I put my hands on his chest and let them wander around, feeling every flesh of his. He brings his tong down my neck again and he starts sucking it, letting his mark on me. Our breathing is fast and sounds loud, we moan at each others actions, but we don't care. Nothing matters now.

I take his member in my hand and he completely stops any action. He holds me tighter, encouraging me by his growl. So I continue caressing it, slowly, then fast, and I hear him moan with pure pleasure. I can feel my own down between my legs and after some time, we both can't take it anymore. He carefully lays me down on the earth and he positions himself above me. My heart beats faster by the moment and my eyes are telling him not to stop. He looks at me with his beautiful eyes again and he smiles at me. He then lowers himself further on and into me. I feel his member starting its way into my own core and I can't help but find it weird. But I like it. And I want more. We both want more.

Sesshoumaru puts his head beside my neck and I put my hands in his long and silky silver hair. I close my eyes and he makes his way further into me. I gasped a bit in pain, but my moan follows right after. I can hear him growl in my ear and it only makes me more impatient. He senses it and doesn't wait any longer before giving a hard thrust into me and bringing him further into me. I let a deep moan escape my throat. But he doesn't stay there very long. He pulls away, only to thrust deep inside me again and hardly. He starts over and over again, alternatively with slow and hard thrusts. We're almost at the edge now and I can feel the power of the Shikon Jewel covering us, overwhelming us. The end is near. We both scream as we both feel orgasm and I can feel his seed splashing into me. Sesshoumaru fells on me and lays still. We're both dizzy in post-orgasmic trance.

After some minutes, Sesshoumaru finally pulls himself off me and stands up. I look at him.

"It's over" he says to me. "Miko, I'm afraid you can never return to your world now."

Indeed, the jewel is gone forever. Somehow, I'm not sad about it. I wanted to get away from my life after all. But something does bother me and as I look at the youkai lord standing in front of me, I know why.

"Do what you want" he tells me by getting dressed again.

I smile at his back. Those words... The same he used to tell Rin... I guess I'm not alone anymore.