Broken by ThatDarnCatt
Heaven's Not Enough
I’m just in the mood for a story like this. It feels kinda like an “I’ll update when I feel like it” kinda story. Just a way to get excess creativity out and keep it going without getting stumped and get a writers block or something. I’ve always had a soft spot for song fics. I really have. I just hate it when the story is more lyric than story. So, while this will be in a song fic category, it will just be at the very beginning and end. Each chapter will have its own specific song, but it will all connect. I hope that makes sense!
Disclaimer: The only thing I own is the storyline, everything else is property of the respective owner. Heaven’s Not Enough, the lyrics at the beginning and end of this chapter, is copyright of Steve Conte; performed in the anime Wolf’s Rain.
Chapter 1: Heaven’s Not Enough
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Heaven's not enough
If when you get there, just another blue
And heaven's not enough
You think you've found it, then it loses you
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Kagome smiled, her happiness infectious as she looked around her at the crowd gathered in her honor. Not only was she being honored as the village miko in Keade’s stead after her recent passing, but she was to wed Inuyasha after so long. He swore that he had finally made everything platonic with Kikyo and that the both of them had agreed their time together was over. In fact, she was able to sit down and have a conversation with the undead priestess and although it was awkward, it was refreshing.
The jewel had been completed for a year, shortly after her 18th birthday in fact, and with its completion came the wish. Kagome had wished with all her heart that those that had been affected by the power it possessed to be free of all burdens it brought. With her unselfish wish brought so much hope. Sango was able to say goodbye to her brother as his soul passed peacefully into the afterlife, Miroku was free from his curse, Kikyo was free to walk the Earth with her own soul and Kagome was given her soul back and the ability to continue her time traveling days.
However, the jewel gave her a stipulation. If Kagome were to ever wish to never return, even for an instant, the well would close. She scoffed at the idea as she smiled at her friends; Kagome knew she would never want the well to close, even now a year later. Especially after today!
The well wishers came in droves, all happy for the miko that assisted in the defeat of Naraku. But as more and more well wishers came, the more she noticed that Inuyasha was not with her. Kagome craned her neck this way and that way in between patrons but didn’t see hair nor dog ear of her betrothed. An uncomfortable feeling seeped into her to settle in the pit of her stomach; something wasn’t right. But she kept her smile bright; no one noticed her turmoil besides Sango.
After so many years of being around Kagome, Sango had quickly gained the ability to read her. To be honest, the girl was like an open book, no matter how much she tried to hide it. So, the demon slayer waited until there was a lull in well wishers before politely excusing Kagome from the crowd to drag her to a more private place. Sango led the young girl to her hut that was nearby, shoving her inside before closing the door.
“Alright, might as well let it out. I can tell you’re forcing yourself and today you shouldn’t be. Your wedding is in just a few hours and your smile shouldn’t be so faked.” Sango looked at her with a critical eye, her hands on her hips. Kagome could only smile sheepishly as she toed the ground. The demon slayer sighed, her shoulders drooping. “Inuyasha hasn’t been seen all day, has he?”
The tears welling up in Kagome’s eyes were enough of a response for the older woman. She enveloped Kagome in a hug, cradling her gently as the girl cried quietly into her shoulder.
“I’m sure there is a perfectly honest explanation for this Kagome. You know there has to be. He asked you to marry him!” Kagome offered a weak smile, “Honestly Kagome, just go find him and ask.”
Kagome smiled brightly before hugging her friend one more time and running out the door, throwing a ‘be back in a bit!’ over her shoulder as she went. Sango’s wave and bright smile faded quickly as she the door leading to the second room slid open and her husband walked out.
“Miroku, if he is with her… we will lose Kagome.” Miroku sighed before gathering his wife in his arms.
“My love, we know he has met with her. All we can do is be there to put the pieces back together. Do not fret.”
“I do not want to lose my truest friend.” The usually strong demon slayer began to quietly cry into Miroku’s shoulder whose only response was to hold her tighter. All they could do was hope that their greatest fears would not be realized.
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Meanwhile, Kagome was quickly moving through the village, quickly responding with bows and thank you’s as she went from passing patrons. Her miko garb flowed with her as she moved; all the gangly awkwardness of her 16 year old self was gone. What replaced it was a gentle and poised young woman that was able to take on so much more than what a 19 year old could really take on.
Kagome stood at the edge of the village, her eyes scanning the trees for that flash of red that always seemed to give her comfort. What she did see made her heart fall to the pit of her stomach. A soul stealer was gracefully arcing out of the tree line, and it was then that Kagome knew where Inuyasha was.
Seemingly on their own, her feet took her the direction she saw the soul stealer. Without her permission, her legs began to run. Unbeknownst to her, tears began to fall.
Kagome stopped at the edge of a clearing, crouching slightly to stay hidden as her eyes widened at what she was seeing. Inuyasha stood, talking to Kikyo, with his back to her and she was close enough to hear ever word.
“Kikyo, I can’t keep meeting you this way.” Inuyasha spoke, taking one step towards the undead miko in front of him, his hand subconsciously reaching out to her.
“Inuyasha, I do not care for the farce you employed to keep the miko from the future here.” Kikyo stared at him coldly, her expression dark.
“It was the only way I could still see you without losing her. I made a promise to you and if nothing else, I will be here for you.” The half demon sighed as he ran his hand through his snow white locks. Kagome didn’t even know if she was breathing at this point.
“She will know that you lied. You are willing to enter into a human binding with her before the Gods based on a lie. You have lain with me for the past year while allowing her to believe that things had changed.”
Kagome couldn’t take it anymore, she was not one to stay silent in any situation and she knew she couldn’t now.
“Inuyasha… you lied to me? For a year?” Kagome sputtered out, crystalline tears running down her cheeks. Inuyasha, to his credit, looked terrified. Wide-eyed and lost, he looked between the two women with confusion and fear.
“Ka-Kagome, how much did you hear?” His jaw clenched when the girl bit her lip and looked to the ground.
“With all the people coming to wish us well… you weren’t there… I was worried…” She let out a choked sob as she looked up at the man she loved, “Is she telling the truth? Have you lain with her for the past year? You let me believe I was saving myself for you for our wedding night, but in reality you were hoping to dodge some guilt that you were going to take my virginity while two-timing me. You are despicable and I never want to see you again!” Kagome was slowly spiraling out of control, everything he had told her and every promise he made to her was a lie.
“Kagome wait, don’t be brash-“The girl took that moment to spin around and dart out of the clearing. She ran through the village, avoiding everyone’s questioning gaze as tears streamed down her face. She was almost to the well when she was intercepted by a concerned demon slayer.
“He was with Kikyo wasn’t he?” Kagome just stared ahead, not answering her question. Sango turned to her husband, “I told you we should have told her!” Miroku paled as Kagome’s shoulders suddenly tensed.
“…you knew?” Her whispered words hit the two of them like a ton of bricks, rooting them to the spot and rendering them mute. “…I’m going home and I will not come back, nor will I be able to. The well will close once I’m through. Tell Shippo to find me in 500 years.”
Kagome took off, not stopped until she had launched herself over the well. The feeling of the magic enveloping her before she touched down at the bottom of the well in her time made her cry even harder, she would never feel that again.
“It was all a lie and everyone knew it. They allowed him to use me and the never tried to fix it. Were they my friends at all? Or was I just a means to an end for them. A shard detector, the miko of the Shikon no Tama.” Kagome screamed, her heart broken as she realized that in her rash decision to leave, she would never find peace.
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But I know the pain
Of leaving everything
Really far behind
And if I could cry
If I could live
What truth I did, then take me there
Heaven goodbye
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Well, I hope you enjoyed it! It’s a little angst, a little sad…
Something a bit different than Rider or the Keeper since in those Kagome is a pretty independent woman. This I am hoping is going to be a bit more character development and things like that.
Well, review and read away!
Until next time!
-Cat