Lifeline to Sanity by amberthorne

LOST

AN: I don’t own Inuyasha.

“Wake up wench!” the voice rang in her head. The young woman woke up from her nap  with a start, quickly scanning her surrounding  with groggy eyes, trying to find the source of the voice that rudely awaken her from her not so peaceful sleep. 

There was nobody there but she could have sworn that the voice was familiar and being woken rudely was somehow a part of a routine in her life that for the past few days have been eluding her memory.  Aside from hearing familiar voices out of nowhere, she would often have flashes of memories that would bombard her conscious mind anytime of the day that would left her with a major headache for the rest of the day and the nightmares that would hunt her in her sleep.

“This is just great,” she huffed in annoyance as she pushed herself up from where she was laying. “First the memory loss, second the nightmares, third the annoying flashbacks and now hearing voices out of thin air. Honestly Kagome you are going crazy…”

The young girl stopped suddenly, eyes widening. “Kagome…Ka-go-me.” She repeated the word again, letting it roll around her tongue, it was familiar and made her warm inside, but before she could fully understand what was happening the dreaded flashback came,taking her by surprise.

---flashback---

“Kagome are you all right?” asked a young woman in a pale pink kimono but before Kagome could answer the young woman turned around and shouted at a young silver haired man who was standing  six feet away from where Kagome was sitting. “How dare you, why can’t you stop comparing her to that piece of clay, you know that she tried her best just like the rest of us in defeating that demon.”

“Keh, if she was trying her best then I shouldn’t be saving her ass every time she got herself in trouble or when we are dealing with demons,” the young man shouted back. “Let us face it she is weak and useless, she is a far cry from Kikyo, she couldn’t even shot an arrow even if her life depends on it. The only thing she is good at is being bait for those…”

Inuyasha’s insensitive words where cut off when a small kitsune kit lunged at his left calf and bit him hard. “Don’t you say those mean things to my mama!” the boy growled, never letting go of the red pant that covered Inuyasha’s left leg. “She cared for a lot of people especially if they are hurt and crying, even you Inuyasha, my mama cared for you when you were not feeling well.”

Inuyasha raised his hand and punched the kit’s head. “Let go of me you brat!”  He growled in annoyance. “Can’t handle the truth, then it is not my problem. She is constantly hindering us from going after the shards and Naraku with all those exams she is taking. Keh those exam are not important, she can take care of those after we defeat Naraku. That wench is just being selfish”

“Enough Inuyasha,” the monk interjected. “Chose your words well, you might regret uttering it in the end.”

“Inuyasha SIT SIT SIT,” Kagome yelled at the top of her lungs. The beads started to glow and pulsate and in a matter of seconds the hanyou was now inside a three feet deep hanyou shaped pit. “Just stay in there and don’t come up.”  Tears were already starting to fall down her cheek but she swiped it away with her hand. She would not let Inuyasha see her cry.

 “What was that for woman,” the hanyou hollered back as he stood up and jump out of the hole. “Save us from all the trouble of saving your pathetic ass and go home. Kikyo can detect the shards better than you. You are a poor excuse of a miko and have endangered this pack for a long time.”

By now Kagome was fuming mad and was seeing red. How could she let herself fall for this jerk! For the past few months she kept the pain within herself, smiling and taking the harsh criticism from Inuyasha in stride, all for the purpose of keeping her friends together. But right now she has seen and heard enough.

“ YOU JERK! I am not the one who put this pack in danger. You are the one who attack first with out considering us and when you fail, you heap the blame on us. For once Inuyasha grow up.”

Kagome was fighting for control, she could feel that her powers were slowly surfacing, ready to attack the hanyou. “The world does not exactly revolve just for you Inuyasha. Selfish am I, Try to remember carefully the things that happened around us before you open your mouth. Who among us sneaked out from the camp to be with that walking clay pot! Who left the pack to battle with your half-brother! Who among us here did not heed the warning of others because he thought that he can handle it himself just because he has a powerful sword” the miko continued. “Before you start calling me weak, pathetic, and useless, you better jog your memory as to who pulled that damn sword from your father’s remains, as I recall it was I that pulled that thing out.

“Did you even remember who pulled the arrow from you and released you from your sleep and while you’re at it try to remember who put you there on the first place. I followed your every plan, foolhardy they maybe, I listened to your complaints and I tried to make myself better but  it is still the same, I am weak and still useless. Have you ever asked for what I wanted and what I feel? Those exams are important to me just like finding the shards and killing Naraku to you.”

Inuyasha glared at the woman in front of him. He knew that what the others are telling are true but if Kagome remains in the group then Kikyo can’t join him. For fifty years he longed for Kikyo to return and now that she is back, he will try to do everything to make her stay with him even if he has to push Kagome out of the pack. He knew that his argument has a valid point; Kagome is not used with fighting. The more they look for the jewel and Naraku, the powerful the demons they faced. And each time these demons attack, the more they have to save Kagome and that would only result in the slowing them even further.

“Whatever,” he waved his hand dismissively. “I should have known that you are not up to this. You better go home and study that stupid test of yours; I am not holding you back.”

He started to walk out of the camp when he suddenly turned his head and faced the group again. “Make sure that you avoid any demons, I will no longer help you. Find another fool to leech on for protection,” he announced. “Maybe you’ll get lucky and they will avoid you like the plague since you can’t even do anything right.”

-----end of flashback----

She wiped away the tears that streamed down her cheek. She didn’t even notice that she was crying. It was bad enough that she forgot who she is but remembering her past in pieces is worse especially if she can only remember the painful part of her past.

 I wonder which kami is toying with my life she asked herself as she walked down a path that lead to a gentle brook. Is this their form of entertainment, making mortal suffer because they are bored with their life.

She slowly washed her face and wiped it with the scrap of cloth that she tore from the hem of her hakama. She watched her reflection on the running brook; at least I knew something about myself. First I am lost in this forest and I am alone, second I am a priestess (she have flashback the day before showing her fighting with some demons while using her miko powers and someone calling her priestess), third her name is Kagome, fourth she had friends, and fifth she knew somebody named Inuyasha and Kikyo.”

Kagome’s train of though was disturb by the growling noise form her stomach.  I better hunt for rabbits before it becomes dark.  She slowly walked back to the oak tree and picked up her quiver and bow and started hunting for her evening meal.

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