Summary: After several years of failed attempts, Sesshoumaru vows to tell Kagome how he feels about her during their drive to school, or just give up. Songfic to 'Crazy for this Girl'.
"print" Talking
'italics' Thoughts
bold italic Lyrics
Warning: This fic is from Sesshoumaru's POV.
Disclaimer: As usual, I do not own anything, so please don't sue.
Crazy For This Girl...Tomorrow
I sat in my driveway for a long time holding the steering wheel with both hands and chewing on my bottom lip while figuring out what to do. All I could see was her face, my best female friend Kagome. It's not everyday that you would catch me like this; nervous over a female, but she was different. She had been there for me through thick and thin, she had broken through my layer of ice I had put up to keep others out.
I needed to tell her how I felt about her before I killed myself over it.
A banging on my door brings me back to reality. I find Inuyasha staring at me.
"What do you want puppy?"
"Hey asswipe, are you gonna move outta the driveway so I can get out or what?!"
I narrow my eyes at him.
"I mean, she's not gonna wait around forever, not even for a jerk like you!"
With that, I reach out and punch my younger brother through the open window, making him land on his ass. Satisfied with my results, I pull off to pick up Kagome.
When I pulled up in her driveway, she came right out. It seems as if she was waiting on me. My heart rate sped up at the sight of her; I felt like an idiot around her. That's a new one for me.
Her raven hair flowed like liquid around her creamy skin and her big blue eyes held a glow that never faded. Kagome's laugh was contagious; it danced on those beautiful plush lips of hers.
We had been best friends our whole high school life. Why she had chose me is and will always be a mystery to me. Why would such an angel want to be my friend? Nevertheless, here we are. BFF.
Whoa, how gay was that? Did I just say Best Friends Forever? Maybe she's becoming a bad influence on this Sesshoumaru. She's making me sound like a girl.
Said bad influence hops into my car through the open window because she knows how I hate that. As if this is Dukes of Hazard or something. I glare at her and she smiles.
"Hey Sesshou! How's your day going?"
"It was going perfect until you dove through my window and put your footprints on my leather."
She rolls her eyes playfully.
"Ah, relax you big ice cube! This is a Mustang!"
"Yes, not the car from Dukes of Hazard must I remind you."
"Live a little!"
"Why are you so happy today? You're making me sick to my stomach."
"Sesshou!"
She grabs my shoulders and my heart stops momentarily.
"It's almost Prom time!"
"So?"
"So?! That's the best part of school!"
"Yes, and now do you care to let go of my person so we may get to school?"
Letting me go, she turns her attention to the radio and finds a song she likes on XM Radio. Just my luck, 'Crazy for this Girl' comes on and I get nervous all over again. If I didn't tell her how I felt about her today...then I'd quit trying.
She rolls the window down
And she
Talks over the sound
She continues on with her banter about Prom as I drive through the busy streets of the city. Countless cars pass us by, sometimes drowning out what she's talking about.
Of the cars that pass us by
She laughs momentarily as a truck passes us, blowing its horn at a slow moving car.
"You are amused by the simplest things sometimes."
"I know, some things are just funny like that Sessh."
And I don't know why
She continues on as I stop at a red light. Glancing at her out of the corner of my eye, I reminisce about how we met.
It was the first day of school and we were in the 9th grade. We had most of our classes together, so I guess it's only natural that we became friends.
No scratch that. Actually, she stalked and chased me relentlessly until I gave in and befriended her. That baka.
But she's changed my mind
"Sesshoumaru?"
Would you look at her
I turn my full attention to her.
"What?"
She looks at me
"The light's green."
She's got me thinking about her constantly
Shaking my head clear of her, I pull off and try to focus on the road. The song starts to kick up my subconscious. That annoying thing again.
'So...are you going to tell her or what?'
But she don't know how I feel
'No. Now go away.'
'Then how will she ever find out?'
'She'll find out when I tell her.'
'And have you set a date for this extravagant affair yet?'
I growl mentally.
'Look at her, so carefree...she doesn't even suspect anything.'
And she carries on without a doubt
'Good, that's how it should stay for now.'
'Hmmm...or maybe she has...and she's waiting on you to make the first move.'
I wonder if she's figured out
"I want to wear silver to prom I think. Yeah, the same color as your hair. Or maybe I'll wear sapphire. I'm not sure yet, it depends on what color looks good on my date."
She turns to me and gasps.
'She scares me with these sudden mood changes sometimes though.'
'So you've noticed.'
I'm crazy for this girl
"Oh Sesshou, who are you going to prom with?"
Suddenly I want to say her name.
"I haven't decided."
'Say her name you baka!'
'Shut up!'
Her eyes light up as she gets an idea. Oh no, this can't be good.
"Great! We're dates then!"
Yeah I'm crazy for this girl...
Even that didn't please my subconscious so it would shut up.
'Good, now tell her that you love her.'
'I said shut up.'
'Well guess what? I'm about to make you have a flashback in the middle of traffic.'
She was the one to hold me
A memory so vivid comes to me that I almost believe it's happening all over again.
The night
The sky fell down
My parents were arguing in the study and I knew their marriage would end after that. My mother wanted to take me with her, but my father wanted to keep me with him. It seems that my father had gotten another woman pregnant years ago and he wanted to marry her now. He even wanted to move her and my half brother Inuyasha in with us.
Kagome wouldn't leave me that night no matter what I told her. She refused to believe that I would be alright. And truth be told, I was and still am glad to this day that she didn't leave me alone when I needed her.
And what was I thinking when
The world didn't end
And as my new stepfamily moved in, things didn't seem all that bad anymore. I mean, Inuyasha is annoying and all, but that's how little brothers are. And my new stepmother Izoya was involved in my life more than my real mother ever was. Where as my mother never cared too much for the girl next to me, Izoya saw right through my façade and supported my Kagome infatuation.
Why didn't I know what I know now
My Kagome infatuation. This Sesshoumaru is one low step away from stalker status. How the hell can I stalk my best friend? The flashback vanished as I realized something.
Would you look at her
She looks at me
The school was less than five minutes away and I was still no closer to telling her I loved her. I had to tell her today. This is ridiculous.
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
Stopping at another red light, I turn to her.
"Kagome..."
"Yeah?"
And she carries on without a doubt
All of a sudden, my throat goes dry and the words get caught up.
"What is it Sesshou? Are you alright?"
I can only nod as I try to force the words out.
"Kagome I want you to..."
I wonder if she'll figure out
She gives me her full attention.
"Want me to what?"
'I want you to know that this Sesshoumaru is crazy for you.'
I'm crazy for this girl
"I want you to put your seatbelt on."
She looks slightly deflated.
"Oh."
She pulls it on and her cheery demeanor returns as she talks about prom again.
'I want you to put your seatbelt on?! You baka!'
'Shut up.'
Yeah I'm crazy for this girl...
I pull into the school's parking lot and instead of jumping out like she usually does, she sits glued in her seat.
"Hey Sesshoumaru...?"
I turn to her and see her serious face.
Right now
Face to face
"Is there something on your mind?"
'Yes.'
"No."
"Are you sure? We're best friends, so you don't have to be scared to ever talk to me about anything."
All my fears
Pushed aside
And as she said that, all my nervousness disappeared, replaced by determination. I wanted her to know.
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
I heard her gasp as I leaned towards her, intent on tasting her lips. Before I could, I heard her friend Sango call out to her, making me detour and whisper in her ear.
With you
"Get out my car baka."
Giggling, she jumps out and runs over to Sango, leaving me alone with my wildly beating heart. I get out just as my friend Kouga comes over to me. Crossing his arms over his chest, he smirks at me watching her.
"So I take it today wasn't the day huh?"
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She turns to me and waves, yelling about us being late if we didn't come along.
"Almost."
She's got me thinking about her constantly
"I'd never thought I'd see the day that the great and powerful Sesshoumaru would fall for a simple girl like Kag."
But she don't know how I feel
And she carries on without a doubt
"For now Kouga, I'll take my time and keep her in the dark. Tomorrow's another day."
Her hair spins about idly, carried by the breeze and I can only smile at the sight.
I wonder if she's figured out
"Do you think she even suspects anything? When are you gonna tell her?
I'm crazy for this girl
Still smiling, I reply.
I'll tell her...tomorrow.
I'm crazy for this girl...